there's nothing worse than ruined plans

well, i'm sure there are things worse than ruined plans but right now, i am not impressed.

anyone who knows me knows that when i am at home for an extended period of time, i count down the days for my return back to a life from the moment i get here.

this time, my countdown has now been thwarted. what should have been "2 more sleeps" is still "3 more sleeps" for yet another day.

i had all these plans for this weekend to meet up with old friends from barrie on friday/saturday, getting my hair done by an old high school friend, meeting up with a friend in toronto on sunday, and then heading back to london sunday evening after a day of vigorous sushi-eating and shopping with said toronto friend.

however, working for your family has its many (i repeat, many) downfalls. one of them being, they can pull the "only 2 days notice, but they really need you" card without having the opportunity to say 'no'...if it had been any other employer and they gave me 2 days notice and i had other plans, well, they're outta luck. however, because it's my family, i must come to the rescue and help. there is no other option.

thus, my plans for even more vigorous shopping on the friday has been cancelled (or i guess rather, post-poned) for an evening of pompous middle-aged people shouting orders at me even when they clearly know i am already in the middle of something. le sigh.

only upside...more cash for the copius amount of retail therapy planned to make up for lost time.

choking back tears

there are moments in time where all you want to do is hold back the tears with all the strength you can muster.

to start the stream would be like opening up pandora's box. so, you tilt your head back hoping the tears would sink right back into your eyes... but they don't.

a single tear escapes you and falls before you have the chance to stop it. and you quickly wipe it away hoping that more won't follow.

you feel a huge lump in your throat as if, all of a sudden, you've swallowed something much too big.

you wave your hands frantically in front of your face thinking that it might blow away any impending tears.

you sniffle and wipe your eyes quickly on your sleeve...

...and then blame it on allergies.

But, pleaseeeeee?

www.kijiji.ca is my new time waster. except most of the time it leaves me feeling really sad that i can't get a sweet little puppy like this Yorkipoo. although, i have been tempted to just get one anyways. but i'm sure the roommates wouldn't be too happy...and if i want to travel, it's not really fair to the puppy.

mike is the one that showed me this site so he is the one responsible for my puppy yearnings. and he is the one that has to be stern with me everytime i almost succumb to these adorable little creatures. i beg and plead but then am brought back to reality.

le sigh. i must just adore them from afar for now.

but one day, i WILL have my very own yorkie, or any cute adorable puppy....and mike can get his big husky (still very cute as pups)....it can be like the brains and the braun... :)

See The World

It seems that everytime I am back in New Liskeard, with nothing to do, I remember that I have this blog that I have failed to keep updated during my oh-so-busy school year. A year or two ago, blogs were my go-to time waster. But Facebook has since replaced them, which is the reason for my lack of attention for my own blog.
But with the recent perusing of some of the (more updated) blogs I once checked regularly, I thought, even though probably nobody even reads my blog anymore, I'm going to update it anyways.

So, I am officially a Western Alum (as I've already received the Alumni magazine in the mail). They don't waste any time. It's definitely a weird feeling, I feel like 4 years just flew by. I don't think it's really sunk in yet that I won't be returning to campus come September...especially as I start thinking about future plans, it's hard to believe that it doesn't involve a soph team, O-week, midterms, bad diets, all nighters, and no exercise. As much as it is a scary thought, I'm really excited. I had plans to attend Fanshawe College come September for Broadcast TV News Post Grad program but as I thought about it more, I am just not ready for more school yet. I want to travel...and I feel as though this is my opportunity to. Thus, I have concluded (I think) that I will work full-time for a year in London, then possibly go to Korea to teach English the following year. A friend says, you make very good money and it's definitely worth the experience. Then after that, maybe a little time to just travel around Europe.

I think it'll be nice to be in the limbo before I get into the real world. Just to be free and travel and not be commited to a REAL job yet. I'm 21, still got a lot of time until I am ready for that. Although, the idea of a real job with a real salary and after a few years of paying off OSAP, a real disposable income, sounds delightful as well.

I'm starting to see that the end of my time at Western (as cliche as it is) is really just the beginning of my journey.