choking back tears

there are moments in time where all you want to do is hold back the tears with all the strength you can muster.

to start the stream would be like opening up pandora's box. so, you tilt your head back hoping the tears would sink right back into your eyes... but they don't.

a single tear escapes you and falls before you have the chance to stop it. and you quickly wipe it away hoping that more won't follow.

you feel a huge lump in your throat as if, all of a sudden, you've swallowed something much too big.

you wave your hands frantically in front of your face thinking that it might blow away any impending tears.

you sniffle and wipe your eyes quickly on your sleeve...

...and then blame it on allergies.